Now that our second baby has arrived I think it’s safe for me to let go of the fears that I held onto prior to my pregnancy. In the beginning, the biggest fear of them all being breastfeeding. In the past when I heard the word breastfeeding I instantly cringed and wanted to hide because it seemed like such an isolated daunting task, I just didn’t want to think about using my breasts to feed another child.
Back in 2009 when I had my daughter there were so many things going on that I could not focus or fully prepare myself for breastfeeding. I remember reading books and articles about how breastfeeding was best for both mom and baby, and of course I agreed with this information 100%, but I couldn’t readily apply this information to my own life. As a student I was focusing on finishing up final assignments and preparing for graduation, in addition to ultrasounds, fetal monitoring and working! I also never saw anyone I knew breastfeed so I had no idea how it actually worked in real life.
What I am learning this time around is using the focus and preparation I didn’t have before to my advantage. Being able to have sometime off from work before baby arrived helped me to mentally prepare myself for breastfeeding. Not only did I research my questions about breastfeeding, but I also visualized myself being successful at breastfeeding as soon as my child was born. I imagined I was one of those few mothers you would see at the mall unafraid to satisfy their child’s needs, whipping out their breast at a moment’s notice. I also brought nursing bras and wore them while I was pregnant and practiced using them, blankets that I wanted to specifically use for feeding my child, and I purposely strayed away from purchasing bottles.
When my son was born I told the nurses no bottles or pacifiers, I wanted to ensure there were no issues with him initially latching on or getting confused. Unfortunately, I had to wait some time after my c-section to feed him, but as soon I was out of the recovery room I woke him up and we got right to it! It was such a joy to know that I was giving him everything that he needed, I felt so much closer and comfortable with him that any fears that I had left easily subsided.
Almost 6 weeks after he was born we are still doing well with breastfeeding. I’ve also started to pump as I will be returning to work in a few weeks. FYI most insurance plans cover some type of breast bump, but their are certain stipulations. I was lucky enough to get a Medela Pump in Style through my insurance.