Ours forever, Alice

On a recent episode of Family Therapy with Dr. Jenn (yes I love this show, sue me!) they discussed family secrets. When it was Damon Dash’s turn to share, he discussed the hurt he went through losing Aaliyah and his mother, but never actually giving himself time to grieve or mourn their losses. This triggered me because every year around this time I find myself sitting through sadness myself.

Alice Roberta Artison went missing in ¬†2004. She was my grandmother and I will never forget hearing the news that nobody knew where grandmom was, the searching that went on for years, and finding out they located what they believed were her remains. At the time, I was young and did not know anything about Alzheimer’s, but now looking back it makes sense.

Alzheimer’s is a form of memory loss and there is no way to stop it. According to Alzheimer’s Association:

Alzheimer’s is the most common form of dementia, a general term for memory loss and other intellectual abilities serious enough to interfere with daily life. Alzheimer’s disease accounts for 60 to 80 percent of dementia cases.

There is a pain like no other when you lose someone you love, but when you lose them to a disease like this it makes it even harder. I get why Dash did not properly grieve because it feels like it hurts even more to keep reliving it, you wonder if you could have done something to prevent it, and hope that the pain will go away.

Unfortunately I don’t know exactly what happened to my grandmother and never will. I just wish I could have told her goodbye and gave her one last squeeze.¬†Please, if someone you know is showing signs of memory loss go the Alzheimer’s Association website for more information. http://m.alz.org/what-is-alzheimers.asp

I love you forever.